Friday, February 18, 2011

This is the year - I can feel it!!

It's Friday!! It's Friday!!! I'm doing my it's Fridays dance :)
It's been a very long time since I've been this happy, and SO excited!!
I really believe this is my year :)

First of all Miguelito is off from school all of next week - Ahhhhhh!!!!
My head was so full of worries and thoughts, that I didn't even realize this fact until yesterday - Ha!
Where have I been?

Miguelito doing homework in Subway (that is Miguelito's small coffee from Dunkin Donuts)

Silly Miguelito and his silly faces :)

My new running sneakers - Reebok Zigtech Sneakers

At Central Park - ready to Rock & Roll - Can you see the ice?

The Central Park Reservoir - full of ice and snow

The street where I live, from way up high on a mountain in Central Park
I have been busy getting back to running in Central Park :)
To help me out, I bought myself some pretty comfortable pink Reebok Zigtech sneakers!
After I dropped Miguelito off at school Tuesday morning, I marched right over to Central Park, 
stretched and started crying! 
Yes! Total break down!
As soon  as the icy cold wind hit my cheeks, my heart started aching.
And a quote popped in my head - from one of my recent reads

"People think of heaven as a paradise garden, a place where they can float on clouds and laze in rivers and mountains. But scenery without solace is meaningless.
This is the greatest gift God can give you: to understand what happened in your life. to have it explained. it is the peace you have been searching for."
- Mitch Albom's: The five people you meet in heaven

It has been a long time since I've been at peace with myself, for so many reasons which can not be said out loud, not yet at least. I can talk about one of them though which plays a big part of it,
 it has been my body image.
After Miguelito was born my weight slowly started creeping up on me. Can I really say creeping up
on me? I'm not sure, sometimes you notice things but choose to ignore them, always saying tomorrow I will 
do it, tomorrow everything will change. Until one day you realize that it's been 1 or 2 yrs or even more.
For me it was 4yrs later that I finally realized that enough was enough, I hadn't noticed how bad it was until I realized that I'd slowly stopped taking pictures with my Miguelito. That's how much I despised looking at myself. I couldn't even look at myself without thinking "ugh-look at that flab", "look at that double chin", 
"look at how fat I look".
It's been almost a year now that I realized how STUPID I was being, I was missing out on precious 
moments that will never be relived again, only remembered through pictures and memories!
 It was also through this blog that I started taking pictures of me again  and was able to post them 
so others could see.
I realized it was now or never, for me it was NOW!!!
I've learned to love myself even more, 
I Love my smile! I love and embrace my oh so sexy Curves :)
Including my big butt and big boobs :)
I love my toes and fingers,
and I especially love me for who I am.
I love myself inside and out!!
From head to toe and skin to bones!

"To Love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance" - Oscar Wilde


Beside's running through Central Park, I've been getting ready for this Sunday, by doing some special shopping. Ahhhhh!!!! Sunday is a very special and exciting day!!!
I really wish I could go into more details and tell you all our exciting news, but it's not official yet.
 I do promise that once everything goes through (keeping our fingers crossed it does)
I will let you guys know :)
I've also been plotting with my dear mamma, something big!!!
More details to come :)

Wishing you all a great weekend my loves :)
Enjoy!

Love,
Kary xoxo

9 comments:

  1. I loved reading The Five People You Meet In Heaven! That quote is great! Did my letter ever come in the mail? I just got mine from my swap partner today, so I was wondering if mine was running late too!

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  2. You live so close to Central Park! Jealous!!
    You can do it, keep rocking those trainers!! xx

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  3. Ah, a week full of Miguelito is bound to be a blast! And your new running sneakers...I love! The color scheme is gorg!

    Happy, Happy Weekend!! :)

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  4. Oh my running through central park! It would be great if I got to see it at least once in my life and you get to jog in it every morning :D SO great!

    <3
    K

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  5. My girls also have a WHOLE week off!! yes!! Enjoy yours my friend!

    Loved that picture of Miguelito and his silly face...kids can be such clowns

    I loved this post! Thanks for sharing...I have the same problem with pictures...wrinkles, some extra pounds...my hair... but you are so right we're missing on moments that will never come back! I've been thinking of making a challenge for myself and posting pictures of me! someday!

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  6. i LOVE this post for sooo many reasons. (miguelito with his coffee-- PRECIOUS!) and then the pic of you two-- I LOVE your make-up and face in it :) sooo beautiful!

    YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! you truly are, inside and out! good for you to getting back to running. Man oh man, have i let my workout down this past week and ate garbage... but alas, you have inspired me to take on this new week with just going but not pushing myself to the point that i'm obsessing over my flaws. i love you! love that song and the book.

    (i'm in need of new running shoes-- i LOVE yours! pink and perfect! how can you not want to run with those right?! lol)

    THIS IS YOUR YEAR! and i'm sooo excited about you and your mom's plans!!! i knooooow i'm going to love it ;) ha!

    LOVE YOU!

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  7. It feels like body image is a major in the blogs :) And you know I think it's wonderful that you are embracing yourself! (and big boobs are fine...I'm small so I've always wanted to be a little bigger).

    Going for a run and pretty new shoes should make you feel empowered!

    I've struggled with comparing my body with other girls for years and I know I've just got to stop and see myself for what I am.

    You're beautiful! Inside and out. I truly think it's your beautiful spirit that just shines through :)

    Can't wait to hear what this big plot is :) xx

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  8. I love your pure honesty with this post. I wish I was there to just hug you during your tears in Central Park! You know we've all been there and you and I have even exchanged messages about our personal struggles in this area. I love that you have finally have found peace with yourself because you are SO beautiful Karina!!!! Not only beautiful on the outside, but a beautiful heart and spirit!! I love your new running shoes! SO girly, SO you!!!! Let me know how you like them, I'm needed some new running shoes and have always wanted to try the zigtech style! One day you'll have to take me running with you in Central Park! :) This IS your year!!!! :) Love you!!!!
    p.s. I LOVED reading "the Five People You Met in Heaven" - such a good read!

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