You might have noticed that this isn't a vision board per se, but it's Vale's dry erase board and it shows a picture of herself and her friend Hannah. Which I thought was pretty cute, and also reminded me that friendship is definitely a good thing to have on a vision board. There's something important about nurturing a friendship and making sure you have solid people in your life. With that being said, let me talk to you a little bit about my ideas for 2020 and what my vision board might look like.
Yeah, I don't have one set up per say.
Adding Running Into My Everyday
I won't call this part losing weight, even though feeling better about myself means losing some of these extra pounds. After becoming a mom for the first time, a few years ago my weight went up, and no I don't mean baby fat. I mean actual fat - lol that just refuses to go away. And even though I've never been told to lose the pounds or felt less loved by my husband, I do feel less loved by me. Being a short 5'2 already makes me a little self conscious, now imagine having to worry about finding that perfect pair of jeans that hugs your curves and covers up those extra little pounds, or trying to find a top that will cover up those little love handles and still make you look cute. I started running/walking a few years ago and it's been a journey ever since, from running a midnight race to running my first ever half marathon. After Vale was born, running was put in the back burner and I soon fell out of my morning run habit and everyone knows that the hardest part about starting something is getting into the habit, once you start and do it everyday, it becomes a part of you and your daily routine. This 2020 and month of January I plan to get back to running. I'm hoping to run my first race in June and I still have to run the NYC Marathon with my hero/dad (pictured above).
Feeling better about myself = having better self esteem
This part is especially important for me. I've never been a vain person, but my self esteem was pretty good. That is except for these past few years, in which it's gone down, way down. Embracing new mommy curves, has been a huge part of it. Between having to find clothes that makes you feel cute and comfortable while embracing your curves in a way that makes you look good, can be stressful enough without having to worry about finding the right size and with sizes changing everyday it can be pretty tough. Especially when society tends to have this image of the way a woman should "look". I didn't realize just how important self love is, until Valentina was born and she started being hard on herself. Yes, a 5 year old can be hard on herself. Can you believe that she told me the other day that she didn't like her face, because she was ugly. Nope, not happening. My neck twisted back so fast, I almost broke it. I remember that before she was born, I'd always look ay myself and say I look so fat ugh, or so ugly today but after she was born it was like something clicked inside, especially after noticing how she watched me when I tried on clothes. I always made sure to not judge myself in front of her and even learned to love myself, a little bit more. One thing that I always make sure to do is remind her how smart, strong and beautiful she is. I compliment her everyday and remind her how special she is, and in return she always reminds me how special a mommy I am. She always tells me how beautiful I am, and that's why one of the things I'm focusing on is seeing myself, how she and my family see me through their eyes. To fully understand just how perfect and not perfect I am in my own way. To embrace my imperfections and focus on how blessed I am to be able to walk out my front door every single day, while feeling good about myself and being able to radiate that all around, especially if I want Valentina to embrace herself just the way she is, which is pretty perfect if you ask me.
Eat more vegetables
Say what?! Who adds eating more vegetables to their vision board?!
I do!
One thing that I can say that I'm proud of, is that in 2019 I tried a lot of more new foods. I even fell in love with Avocado. Yep, you read that right. I wasn't a fan of avocado and as a matter of fact I didn't eat it at all before 2019. It's funny to see how I'm obsessed with it now, and have to eat it almost everyday. With that being said, I'd like to add eating more vegetables into my daily intake a little bit more. I've already bought some spinach at Trader Joes and have added it to my breakfast routine. I've been thinking about keeping a food diary, in order to help see what I eat and keep track.
Not sure yet, it's something that I'm working on.
Stop Being So Afraid
I have so many ideas rolling around in my head, from things I'd love to learn, to projects I'd love to start.
What's stopping me?
Well, me, myself and I.
I'm scared of failing and yes, I know that if I don't try I will never know and I've learned from my past that What If, is a haunting notion that will forever bother you.
I'm hoping to kick fear in the butt and make some of those rolling ideas, stop rolling and make them a reality.
It's time to grab the bull by it's horns, speaking figuratively of course.
Treasure The People In My Life
2019 reminded me how important it is to treasure those closest to you and those friends who are always rooting for you, instead of waiting for your down fall.
In 2019 my family and I became even closer, is that even possible?!
People who I thought would be a part of my life, stepped out of it and I'm ok with that.
Because with them out of my life, so did the greed, toxicity and fakeness went away and if you know me, then you know that one thing that I can't stand is fake people. Therefore I will never be fake and when my friendship is offered, you better believe that I will be one hell of a friend. I will root for you and send nothing but good vibes your way.
You will be treasured!
There, that's how my vision board would look.
It looks like I will be working on becoming a better me, and detangling all those ideas that are jumbled up in my head and making sense of them. I won't say here's to a new year, because there really is no perfect time to make your dreams a reality. You don't have to wait until the 1st of January or the new year to begin, for you to write out things you'd like to work on, or improve or make happen.
So grab a piece of paper, an old notebook or whatever you want to write on and start writing out those visions and make them happen :)
Love,
xoxo
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